Tuesday, 05 May 2009

Thursday, 08 January 2009

  • there's nothing i could say to you,
    nothing i could do to make you see
    what you mean to me

    and knowing that just kills me, each time i think of it

    despite what promises i made, i'm going to make you happy
    at all costs, even if it means hurting myself a little bit inside
    i will be and do everything you want and need

    i promise

Wednesday, 12 November 2008

  • i cannot sleep, will not sleep, dare not sleep
    i cannot eat, will not eat, refuse to eat
    i can't stop crying, but i haven't tried to stop crying
    my heart hurts and i keep thinking it will just stop beating
    like her's did only without the help of a drug
    some part of me keeps triggering thoughts
    that make me think i'm in some sort of a coma or deep sleep
    and conjuring up all of this pain and events in my head
    but then i look under my bed and     she's not there

    she's never going to be here again

Monday, 10 November 2008

  • if you're not to the point where you consider what I might want at times, if you're not to the point where
    my feelings are immediately factored into certain equations, if you're not to the point where
    you can't fucking remember me even if i'm NOT there,
    either there's something wrong with you or you don't love me like you say you do.
    i understand that there's a line between who you are and what is expected of you
    but after so long, don't you think that all of the above should be about where you are at this moment?

    i do.

Tuesday, 04 November 2008

  • cut cut cut cut
    stab stab stab stab stab STAB

    helloooo break up.
    shall we start the suicide process tonight?
    depression already prepared me for the kill.